Past is forever....

why does it happen, that we can't relive the past? or why is it that we can't forget the past? Past... why should it have influence on the present? especially when you know it's just past!!! It's not comfortable enough to be part of an environment, where everything except you has changed over the time....It's not pleasant enough to witness 'present' slowly turning into the 'past'... Why do we think more about 'present becoming past' more than the 'future becoming present'? Is it that we are not optimistic enough? Or is it that we are not sure about the future, but past is reality? Is it because the future is just an assumption or hope, past is a fact and present is just the transition time plus our efforts to make the future a 'fact'? I feel as human beings, we have more value for the most durable, reliable things which are least susceptible to 'change'....

Sadly, 'PAST' has all these features.... because only past is forever......

Falling in love again...

Is falling in love again and again a wrong thing? or it just shows that you can actually 'love' and are quite generous about it? hahahah.. I don't know but it keeps happening with me many times... ok I am talking about my love for naked bikes... the streetfighters... the recent and quite practicle being 'Yamaha FZ 16'... Lord of the streets!..... I just love the punch line.... I had heard that when you love someone, you end up liking and admiring everything about them... it's true! So I started with the punch line!!!... :)
One more doubt... Is love actually blind??? (considering the fact of falling in love again and again) When you are in love you don't remember anything else, you don't 'see' anything else. True, but in future you still fall in love again with someone else or even the same person again!!! Isn't it interesting?(though not everyone accepts or understands it!!! for various reasons) Anyway, coming back to the point (blind one), when i look at my consistantly increasing number of pictures of crushes on orkut album, I do find there is lot common in them! They (bikes) are individually very different, in every small detail and a even a package as whole. But the fact that they all are naked streetfighters with strange and not so common headlamps without fairing, a ready-to-fight-the-traffic stance, with low or midrange torquey nature etc... There is still so much common... I dont think love is really 'blind'! It has got really sharp eyesight actually. :)
I remember something from the book 'blink' related to this. We have some image of what we like and what we don't. But it's only that 'we' think so! What we actually like or fall for can be much beyond our 'intentional thinking process'! And may be thats why we keep on falling in love with these so called 'different' things/people. Its the 'blink - the process of thinking without thinking' which keeps working in background for us and we just wonder how could it happen? Is it right or wrong ? etc. May be this is why we associate some part of our thinking to 'heart' instead of brain... And this is where the confusion begins.... just the way I am right now.... whether to buy FZ16 as my torque thirsty heart says..... OR stop myself from spending so much money and buying a less fuel efficient bike... I am working in an alternate fuel automobile company!!! May be I should 'Let it go' as neeru's blog (relinquish) says... because I have this capacity to fall in love again!!! hehehe

one of the nights at NID

2 O' clock in night. I received an sms. I was not really surprised by that, neither I was fast asleep. It was from my best friend saying "come to girls' hostel gate". I got a little worried about her. I couldn't guess what it can be so that she had to call me there instead of just calling me on phone! Anyway, i started walking towards girls' hostel still trying to guess what it can be.
And I saw her standing there, with a travelling bag beside her. Is she planning to run away? She smiled at me puzzling me even more! Am I also supposed to run away or what? But she had a boyfriend, and people generally run away from home, not hostel! Or is it that she just wanted to say bye to me before leaving! And why was she carrying such a small bag then? Am I supposed to take care of her other stuff while she settles down somewhere? But where? I was just few steps away from her and my every step made her smile wider and me more puzzled.
"this is worth 1500 no bhavin?" pointing towards the bag she asked me.Ohhhhh!!!! Now I got it!!! So all this was just for me to confirm that the money she spent today is justified and so she could sleep peacefully!!! I looked at bag, it was quite good looking and nice quality, but much smaller than I got for lesser price (as we already had discussed in the day! I just talked about all the positive things and confirmed that it was actualy worth 1500.
I am sure all that gave her a sound sleep that night, but I just couldn't sleep!!! I was laughing whole night... It was for a bag!!! I don't know why it got recalled today after more than one year, but I am still laughing...
:)

Hope!

There are people who understand what you are trying to do, but are not authorised to help you.

There are people who have enough authority to help you, but just don't understand what you are trying to do!

And there are people, like me, who still have hope!

:)